Everything seems harder when you are depressed. A mood disorder that affects all aspects of life, depression makes everything less enjoyable, less important, and puts a strain on the body. Parenting is difficult enough in the best of circumstances. When you add depression to the mix, it can seem utterly impossible.
Being a mother with depression, also known as Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), can be a tremendous challenge. It’s hard to even get out of bed most days, let alone make breakfast and get the kids ready for school and on the bus. I commit to attending school events and field trips but I know I won’t be able to go, and I always cancel.
I am so tired and so drained, physically and emotionally, but if I close my eyes I don’t relax. The only sleep I get these days is doctor prescribed, and I wake up feeling awful. I can’t focus or concentrate on simple tasks like laundry or dishes – the mail has even been tossed aside for weeks. I feel like I am on the brink of breakdown, hanging by a thread.
I know my kids are suffering. I have had to abandon them on outings with my husband because my irritability and frustration is so overwhelming. I have gotten calls from their school informing me that they are acting out and I know it’s because of my lack of interaction with them at home. I want to feel motivated and I want to want play with my children and be involved in their events and education. I don’t know how to shake this feeling of being overwhelmed and anxious and sad. How can I ever be a good mother when I can barely keep it together?
If this sounds familiar, you are not alone. Millions of people around the world are experiencing, or have experienced, depression. If you or someone you love has been diagnosed with depression and feel like you are out of options, a research study may help. Biobehavioral Research of Austin is currently seeking participants for several current and upcoming studies for those suffering with depression. Participants are evaluated by medical professionals, they often learn more about their condition and how to manage it, and receive compensation for time and travel expenses.